狂傲的風…瘋狂之島

left melbourne, heading to tasmania.

whole the trip of tasmania, is with 3 people.
Elson, his GF-jenny, Her sister- Linda.

not bad, not good...

dont know why..

always feel that I am at higher rank of taste...

silly? yeah...

and at the sametime, always feel that people dont like me..
then, I would have to leave people behind before they left me.
then, I would have to pretend I can be alright without them..
at least, looks like that...

there is always a calling in my deep heart, to jump out from everything..
happy, then stay. unhappy, turn away.

tasteful because everyday there's people u can talk with.
tasteless, because I dont like the so so talking...
if the talking is just a reply instead of void, then it is a nonsense talking, isnt it?

if the one isnt really interested about the talking, then ?
then it is not success conversation.

It is not smart to expect too much, to expect others can have same taste with me.
It is not smart that to expect everyone with same curiousity as I do have.
I dont know..

then, the temperature of talking might reduce till below zero...

after tasmania, a bit lonesom..or...much much lots of lonesome..
but another kind of fullfil.....

walk form east to west, from north to south,
turn whenever I want to turn, no negotiation.
no one will complain about tiring, except myself.
no one will complain about stupid decision, exept myself.

then, thing comes easy.

stop whichever spot interest me.
realize it is nothing, but no harm.

actually even if walk with friends, no harm that found something is nothing.
but...kind of feel that I have to response for that?
stupid? yeah....

everynight doing my homework, pasting the thing I saw, and record or compose diary.

dont know why, maybe too many europeans during the trip on my own,
different values, habbits?
or?
just because of shorterm staying, I am tired of making friend, but at the same time expects others to know me to talk to me..

selfish , is it?

dont know..

but this is me...

travel alone..
spending money...

no one stop me...except myself..

kind of sad..
sad for the happiness I earned....

tastful lonesome.
that is teasteful..

but, it pays....