狂傲的風…瘋狂之島

there is a while, since I travel alone, that not met a attractive girl ...
always so many europeans on the street, but ....
somehow they are beautiful, but like blue/green eyes alien..
like a doll in the shelf, not a breathing life..


searched info about thailand, the sex industry....
dont know how should I think about that...
read the book about the male/female, what is sex meant to people? to me? to u?

but that recalls the desire as a man.....
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surely people would ask me something about my thailand trip..
as it is know as bussiness of sex...

but I am not sure how I am going to answer...
also I am not sure what is going to happen..

I only know, I read some blogs about their Thailand trip..

some are freely even kind of shamely talked about their sex experience..
some are frightened and do their best to deny everything even thinking....

dont know...

I dont want to be either of them..
but that means I will be both of them........

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oh, and this morning, there is a beautiful girl ..
we had no conversation, but I noticed she is beautiful and got a good shape..

that reminds me that a book said: "while a man look at a woman, there is always something more than just looking at a female..."
the ambiguous sex message? .....

cant deny, but cant discuss...this is our world.....