狂傲的風…瘋狂之島

there are quite some girls in my life..

I mean, we know each other in some uncertain level.

and I can sense there is something a bit more than usual friend...

but just as any another sensitive and frightened person,
I am not dare to question to figure it out..

another reason is, I dont want to give up a forest because of a tree....

another reason is...they seems happy to live on their life, with a visible him or a him that I assumed..

no one dare to ask, we just leave that blank filled with our imagination and let the feeling gone with wind..


always try to stare something in a distance, such a thing that maybe barely can be seen..
but my eyes is not filled with encourage of strong will..
the thing instead is curiousity and uncertainty and the eager to figure it out..

when I were heading to australia, when I am heading to singapore-the entrance of south-east asia.

when I am querrying the meaning of life, and love...

a life without love is not able to be described happy.

a life with love is another messy thing to figure out, but at least it is surely happier...


always a question in my mind, what am I to u?

surely, I am questioning myself, what r u to me?

so many grils, touches my heard, speed up my heartbeating...

is that still? if we meet again?

if not?
means no more passion, no more attraction?
I dont think so..

maybe, more confusion....

dont know where to step on...
even though I know life is always a gamble..
but I dont know where should I throw the dice in my hand..

I think, all that I need is simply talk more...
telling more truth..to the people means something to me....

then, I can find myself more..

then, be sure about where am I heading to..




........
at last..

is there still a job waiting for me in taiwan?
just while I use the expensive internet,
just while I am still travelling contributiing money to other country...

....
damn....

am I going to settle down?
I think I do want to settle down..

but, maybe more physically then emotionally...
static job, income..

but, acommpany? I dont know......