狂傲的風…瘋狂之島

終於看完了這本書
最後一個匈奴
http://book.sina.com.cn/nzt/lit/zhygxn/index.shtml
書名是匈奴 但只是借這個字辭 透過陜西北部的楊家-匈奴的後裔-
穿透民國初年到近十餘年的中國歷史動盪
並訴說著這塊土地上演了多少血淚
(雖然沒有好好研究 但中國這古老歷史有多少的血淚 正如世界其他地方
而二十世紀對中國人而言的急劇變化 使個這血淚更是一把把抹不乾擰不盡)

本書以匈奴王阿提拉的故事為開頭 暗示著中國北方的血脈曾經如此豪邁
http://zh.wikipedia.org/w/index.php?title=%E9%98%BF%E6%8F%90%E6%8B%89&variant=zh-hant

並提示著那接下來的苦難日子 在這塊從未吃飽 越墾越窮的蠻荒土地上
渺小的人兒如何在艱困的環境下生存..
面對了蛇麼 經歷了什麼 付出了多少代價 又到底如何這麼活了過來
生命 竟是如此的殘酷與等閒 再大的風雨也只能哆嗦著應著脊梁應付著..

或許 我也屬於一支遊牧民族?
我遠古的祖先是誰呢?
江南一帶廣閩地區的先祖你門又從何而來?
獨有的髮色 卻又遺傳自何方?
是否是歐洲遠方的海盜? 那麼是否血液中流著出海顛沛的基因?
是否離開我的根 對我而言是一件不得不的慾望?

又是否 當 與期待穩定的社會普便觀念一衝突
我就不知該何處立足了?

於是 我的愛情之路 是否也因此在慾望與常規的擠壓下
不知該投向何方?


p.s. after this book, Ｉ　ｒｅａｌｉｚｅｄ　ｔｈａｔ　ｃｏｍｍｕｎｉｓｔ　ｉｓ　ｎｏｔ　ｔｈａｔ　ｅｖｉｌ．．
ｏｒ　Ｉ　ｓｈｏｕｌｄ　ｓａｙ，ｉｎ　ｓｕｃｈ　ｂａｃｋｇｒｏｕｎｄ　ａｓ　ｃｈｉｎａ，
ｉｎ　ｃｏｍｐａｒｉｓｏｎ　ｏｆ　ＫＭＴ，　ｍａｙｂｅ　ｃｏｍｍｕｎｉｓｔ　ｓｔａｎｄｓ　ｆｏｒ　ｍｏｒｅ　ｉｄｅａｌ？
ｏｒ，　ｅｖｅｎ　ｍｏｒｅ，　ｔｈｅｙ　ｄｉｄ　ｅｖｅｎ　ｍｏｒｅ　ｔｏ　ｔｈｅ　ｇｅｎｅｒａｌｌｙ　ｐｏｏｒ？
thru brutal ways to wake china the sleepy lion,
thru mean ways to kept power centered with Mao.
Everything, maybe everythings happened without accident..
this is what China's fate,this is what china got to face...

(..to be continued not translated)


...
finished the book...
最後一個匈奴
http://book.sina.com.cn/nzt/lit/zhygxn/index.shtml

actually, it is such a book talking about the history in china among 1911-1990..

thru a family at North shaanxi(陜北) area discuss what happened on the land...

the book begins with the story of hun, such nomad tribes..
mentioned the great attila as hint of the tough asian people,

http://zh.wikipedia.org/w/index.php?title=%E9%98%BF%E6%8F%90%E6%8B%89&variant=zh-hant

what they faced, what they thru, how they paid the price of living,
and how they survived after all.....

maybe..

I belong to a nomad?

or as the book mentioned..
after the nomad warrior met a farming girl...
then that decides that their descendants will fall in to conflict..

to stay with the field, farming to gain full..
or to roaming around the land to satisfy the desire of adventure..

maybe that, decides my fate...


p.s. after this book, Ｉ　ｒｅａｌｉｚｅｄ　ｔｈａｔ　ｃｏｍｍｕｎｉｓｔ　ｉｓ　ｎｏｔ　ｔｈａｔ　ｅｖｉｌ．．
ｏｒ　Ｉ　ｓｈｏｕｌｄ　ｓａｙ，ｉｎ　ｓｕｃｈ　ｂａｃｋｇｒｏｕｎｄ　ａｓ　ｃｈｉｎａ，
ｉｎ　ｃｏｍｐａｒｉｓｏｎ　ｏｆ　ＫＭＴ，　ｍａｙｂｅ　ｃｏｍｍｕｎｉｓｔ　ｓｔａｎｄｓ　ｆｏｒ　ｍｏｒｅ　ｉｄｅａｌ？
ｏｒ，　ｅｖｅｎ　ｍｏｒｅ，　ｔｈｅｙ　ｄｉｄ　ｅｖｅｎ　ｍｏｒｅ　ｔｏ　ｔｈｅ　ｇｅｎｅｒａｌｌｙ　ｐｏｏｒ？
thru brutal ways to wake china the sleepy lion,
thru mean ways to kept power centered with Mao.
Everything, maybe everythings happened without accident..
this is what China's fate,this is what china got to face...